Friday, March 17, 2006

The Bitch-Goddess Who Has a Hold on Me




Looking back over my last few entries, I can definitely see a streak of bitchiness in them all. But I do have a decent excuse. After many many years I have finally committed myself to quit smoking. Over the course of the past few months, I have reduced my intake from a pack a day to having one in the morning and one at night.

Well, it has now been a week since I ended even those few each day.

Its strange because there have been many other times that I tried to quit but failed. However, this time feels completely different and its due to the fact that I actually want to quit. The other times I was always thinking I should quit or was “encouraged” by Bud to quit. Having come to the conclusion that I want out of my relationship with tobacco has proven to be all the difference in the world.

But a lack of patience is incumbent with this experience and trying to lose weight at the same time as stopping smoking is no easy task. But I told myself I would quit before I was 25, then 26, then 27 , then 30 and so on and so on and so on. But I am getting no younger. And I don’t want it in my life any longer.

Here’s hoping that I can keep it up. One week down, a lifetime to go (and hopefully a longer one at that).

5 Comments:

Blogger tornwordo said...

I really needed that, thanks. My last was 18 hours ago. Today is sucking pretty badly. But I know there are better days ahead.....

3:50 p.m.  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Good luck.
The trick I found was to avoid occassions where I'd normally smoke (ie: going to a smokey bar) and avoid smoking any form of tobacco. So when someone offers me a cigar or a joint rolled with tobacco, I decline. I feel much better for it. I know if I smoke even a bit of tobacco, I'll go right back to it.

I wish you success.

4:21 p.m.  
Blogger jjd said...

smoke free since jan 3 2005! There are still occasional urges, but as long as you create a line in the sand you will not cross (I will not even take a "puff") and are committed -- which you sound -- I firmly believe you have smoked your last cigarette. By the way, my lungs and soon yours will thank you for it!

6:56 p.m.  
Blogger Poz Mikey said...

I quit for three years. I ended up looking like Barney Rubble then started again. I wish you better luck then I had. M

10:38 p.m.  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

smoke free since the end of Oct - i'd tried many times before, but this time I feel like I've got the balls to quit for good. I did it with the help of a book - The Easy Way To Quit Smoking - sounds too good to be true, but it really was easy. Now I'm one of those pain in the arse reformed smokers who preaches to many!

7:00 a.m.  

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